Well, two days ago, I would have said Mom is improving. After crashing on Monday when out-of-town family left, she rallied and has had a good week. However, yesterday, she was just so confused all day. She spent the day with my sister-in-law, and on the way to her home, she asked me three times in the car, ‘where are we going?’. Her home health nurse and physical therapist went there to see her. But she didn’t seem to recognize them or understand why they were there. Last night when my brother brought her home, she looked totally exhausted.
When she came out this morning, she was dressed — complete with shoes and earrings. I thought that was a great start to the day. But as we talked over a cup of coffee, and she fidgeted with her hearing aids (replacing the batteries again!), she just didn’t seem herself. I was hoping to get the name of her hearing-aid company so we could once again order batteries from them. Recently, I’ve been picking them up at the local drugstore, and they just don’t last as long. But Mom couldn’t remember the company or the fact that she had always gotten the batteries from them. She was just confused by the conversation; so I dropped it.
After breakfast, she headed to her chair, and has slept the morning away. I have banged pots and pans and dishes as I emptied the dishwasher. I even used my cellphone to call the house phone so the ringing would wake her up. I put on an old movie — she loves old movies. I turned the volume up really really loud , and made a mental note to pick up some ear plugs for myself. “Mom, here’s a movie coming on. Cary Grant and Grace Kelly”. She roused and said, “oh, that’ll be good”. I think she may have seen bits and pieces, but she still slept through most of it.
I woke her again; fixed her lunch. She is cold. I helped her into her fleece sweater; checked her temperature. She says she feels fine, but she is just tired today. So sad. This is not my mom.
Usually I insist that she walks more; lets get that blood pumping. I often have her “walk the circle” in my house a couple of times when she gets up to use the bathroom. She is usually reading the paper or doing a crossword puzzle. She loves to watch the news. But not today…
I put a Julia Roberts movie on because Julia is one of her favorite actresses. But she is sleeping again. She hasn’t done this before — slept the day away. I’m not sure what to do. Will this disrupt her sleep tonight? Is she sick? She ate a good lunch. She just can’t keep her eyes open today.
I don’t know what to do.
Lord, I need wisdom and clarity today. These are the days that I get overwhelmed with this task. I don’t know what I am doing. Please help me to give her the best care. Help me to know what to do and when to do it. Please give Mom strength today. Her body is so tired and frail. I don’t know what to do…