The good news is the CT scan was normal. The bad news is Mom is back in the hospital. I just want to cry. I tried so hard to avoid her going back in, but some things are just out of my control. It isn’t her heart or her congestive heart failure. Blood work showed that she has improved in two weeks. But her legs just won’t work. And the doctors all agree that something isn’t quite right; she is a fall risk. The ER doctor bluntly said, ‘you can’t go home because you might fall and break your hip, and that would be terminal for you’. Ouch. But it was what Mom needed to hear. It was what I needed to hear because I wasn’t so sure I was going to leave her there.
I am here at home today caring for my three grandsons. The distraction is good. My sister-in-law is at the hospital texting me periodically with updates: ‘waiting for MRI… gone for MRI…. will take about an hour… Doctor just in…. He is coming up with nothing’. Great. Not what I wanted to hear, but I guess I don’t know what I want to hear. I’m not sure there are any good scenarios here.
So I wait. Hard to be here and not there.
I don’t think she’ll be coming back here for awhile. I think they will try to do rehab somewhere. That “somewhere” will most likely be the local nursing home. And that makes me want to cry too. I know Mom doesn’t want to go there. I told her I would do everything I could to keep her here. I just pray to God if she has to go there, it will only be temporary. I don’t want her last days to be in a nursing home.
I fear she won’t come out.
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Mom had the same thing after her pacemaker 2 months ago , they feared she’d not walk but is …better but weak rehab was a god sent .